To Trust Or Not To Trust…

Trust. Firm belief in, confidence.

This is something I have given out to easily in the past and at times have been very stingy with. Trust is something valuable, something that needs to be earned and respected.

Starting as far back as Junior High, I had a hard time trusting friends. I had a “friend” who was pretty darn close to being a best friend who suddenly changed. Rude comments instead of laughs and fun. Cancelling plans and telling me she would rather go with someone else instead of trying to con our moms into letting us spend as much time together as possible. I to this day don’t know what happened, but I know that friendship changed something in me. After that, I only had a couple of truly close friends and this lasted through most of High School.

More recently I’ve found myself trusting people a bit too easily just because I knew them in the past or I’m just feeling the need for friendship. Then within a few months of trusting too much, I found myself almost panicking at the thought of sharing my phone number with someone I barely know.

I’m desiring to find a balance in my trust – both the giving and receiving of it. I don’t want to expect someone to trust me just because I know me and I know I can be trusted. I don’t want to trust someone just because they tell me they can be trusted! People need to take the time to know me and I them so a true trust can be established. I would hate to give someone all my trust only to be taken advantage of, pushed to the side, or (Heaven forbid) have them hurt me or my kids.

I’m putting “rules” into play for myself. I haven’t quite figured all of them out, and maybe once I do I can share them! For now, slow and steady wins the race. Lots on my heart as I type this… but that’s another topic for another post!

About Alicia

Alicia is a Jesus loving, homeschooling, mini-van driving, food loving, gluten-free-cuz-I-have-to-be, fun loving, choir mamaing, bike riding, So Cal born and raised solo mama to 2 amazing kiddos with 3 cats, a ginormous dog and the 2 cutest nieces ever! She had a deep passion for cooking and baking that left with her Celiac disease diagnosis in 2013, but has now returned as she experiments with and tests recipes to make them delicious and enjoyable even without the gluten! You can find all sorts of random thoughts, ideas and whatever else pops into her completely random mind right here at Big Black Trash Bag!
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