“Future” – not “Dream”

A certain number of years ago when I was a newly licensed driver, I wanted a big truck! My first car ended up being a Mercedes Benz!! Yes! And… I paid for it myself! It was a 1975 Mercedes Benz 280 in an ugly yellow color with a smashed door! It ended up needing more work than it was worth and I swapped it out for a little coupe that was just a few years old. That lasted me a long time – I did consider trading it in a few times! Once for a convertible and a couple times for a BIG TRUCK!!

I never got my big truck. It just wasn’t in the cards. I tried and looked into it a couple of times, was about ready to sign papers once even! BUT – I did the smart thing and kept my little car. That truck would have doubled my monthly car payment, insurance and fuel costs! Kids came along and my own desires were set aside for various reasons. At one point I was even driving a 15 passenger van… fun. Fortunately, about 7 years ago I was able to get rid of the gas guzzling van and downsize to an older minivan which I’m still driving.

With our new interest in fishing, we are naturally now interested in boats! The kids and I spent some time looking at boats at a local sporting goods store and were talking about the pros & cons of the different ones. Well this naturally led us to talking about a different vehicle! My little van can’t pull a boat! We’ve been looking at trucks on the road and have narrowed it down to what we desire to have! Even down to the color! I know I’ve got some more research to do since we based 100% of our decision on which one came with the 4 door option and looked the “beefiest”… yes… beefy. We like that big, beefy truck! I don’t dare go to the dealership – I’m not in a place to purchase a truck right now, so I don’t need the temptation!

This past week, as we were on our way to choir rehearsal I spotted the exact truck we chose! I pointed it out and said

“Hey guys! Look! Our dream truck!”

“No. No, mama. Don’t call that our dream truck.”

“What do you mean, Zoe?! That’s it!”

“No, it’s not our dream truck, mama. That’s our¬†future¬†truck!”

SMACK. IN. THE. FACE.

I want faith like that! Faith like my 11 year old girly! That’s our future truck! I don’t wanna dream about good things, I wanna believe! I wanna work toward these goals and achieve these dreams – make them more than dreams, make them our future!

So I will keep driving my 19 year old van and admiring my future truck from afar! I know things can be a bit rough as a single mom, money is tight. I also know that I have a bright future! Some good things are gonna be happening and I trust that our truck is a part of our future!

Faith like a child! That’s what I want!

About Alicia

Alicia is a Jesus loving, homeschooling, mini-van driving, food loving, gluten-free-cuz-I-have-to-be, fun loving, choir mamaing, bike riding, So Cal born and raised solo mama to 2 amazing kiddos with 3 cats, a ginormous dog and the 2 cutest nieces ever! She had a deep passion for cooking and baking that left with her Celiac disease diagnosis in 2013, but has now returned as she experiments with and tests recipes to make them delicious and enjoyable even without the gluten! You can find all sorts of random thoughts, ideas and whatever else pops into her completely random mind right here at Big Black Trash Bag!
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