More Beneath the Surface

As I’ve shared, my kids and I are learning to fish. Every time I see a body of water, now I wonder “what’s in there???” I want to know what kinds of fish are in there, where they are at and how I would go about getting those fish to bite.

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As of now, I’ve yet to catch anything bigger than my hand. I wonder what I’m doing wrong, spend countless hours reading stuff and watching videos online and am often times still unsure.

I know that there is way more beneath the surface of those bodies of water than my eyes are capable of seeing. I know there are hungry fish under there… they keep stealing my bait! I know they are there, I just don’t know how to accomplish my goal- to catch one of those big fishies.

All of my wonderings caused me to think about all I’ve been learning with friendships lately and just people in general. There is always so much more going on beneath the surface than most people will let on. I know I’m guilty of it. Often lately, I am in intense pain from this darn arm & shoulder thing, but I try to not let on how much it hurts. Sometimes, people who know me well can tell just by looking at me but others don’t. I think most everyone tends to hide things- pain, feelings, frustrations, heartache and even fear. We hide these things for the same reason all the fish hide from me… to protect ourselves. The fish don’t wanna be caught. I don’t wanna be caught being weak.

When one has been in a position of need a lot, wether it be from having been sick, injured or just a rough patch in life it can be really hard to keep accepting help. Especially if like me, you can tend to have a “people pleaser” personality. You don’t wanna be a burden. You don’t want people to get sick of you. You don’t want to upset anyone or cause them any inconvience. So you hide your needs beneath the surface.

How can I stop myself from hiding, from feeling insecure? How can I allow myself to be “hooked” by those who truly desire to be there for me and to help me? I have to be honest and vulnerable. Which is SO not easy for me. But I’ve been forcing myself to do it more and more.

I’m praying for each person who reads this to be able to allow others beneath the surface, to be open and honest with those The Lord has placed in their lives for a reason. Even the Lord has more beneath the surface for those who love and serve Him. He’s not hiding stuff from us, though. Typically, I believe He’s waiting for the right moment for us to “hook” what He has for us. Seek Him, friend. He wants you too. Unlike those stubborn fishies who won’t let me catch them!!

About Alicia

Alicia is a Jesus loving, homeschooling, mini-van driving, food loving, gluten-free-cuz-I-have-to-be, fun loving, choir mamaing, bike riding, So Cal born and raised solo mama to 2 amazing kiddos with 3 cats, a ginormous dog and the 2 cutest nieces ever! She had a deep passion for cooking and baking that left with her Celiac disease diagnosis in 2013, but has now returned as she experiments with and tests recipes to make them delicious and enjoyable even without the gluten! You can find all sorts of random thoughts, ideas and whatever else pops into her completely random mind right here at Big Black Trash Bag!
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