The Sounds of Silence

Silence can be absolutely maddening.

I have been known to force myself to just sit and be. To sit in a busy place and just wait quietly. No looking at a book, magazine or my phone – to just notice what is around me. Notice the people, notice places or things I most likely would have missed. In these moments, I have even found myself saying quick prayers for random strangers.

Silence from friends can sometimes make me doubt things or wonder. I’ll send a text and have no response – for days. Inside, I know my friends have more important things than responding to a text, but sometimes the silence is hard. Even just a few weeks back I stopped initiating text messages thinking (foolishly) that maybe I was annoying people – that I am the one who, 95% of the time, initiates a text conversation. So maybe they don’t want to talk to me. Maybe for some that is indeed the case, maybe not. Enough about friendships – the Lord is doing a LOT in my heart regarding friends and that’s a WHOLE ‘nother post! Anywho!

To be in silence is a very hard thing for me.

I always have music on. Or social media. Or Netflix. Always noise. Noise means I don’t have to listen to the chaos inside of my own head and heart.

But…

What if…

What if I need the silence?

Silence the TV & radio.

Silence the phone.

Silence from friends and maybe even family.

Silence from my kids.

What if The Lord is trying to communicate something to me and the silence is what is needed so I will LISTEN? Not just hear, but listen.

“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
Psalm 46:10

To be still. To listen to His voice. To read from His word and then to just be.

I’ll be perfectly honest – when I’m going to have a truly quiet time. A time to just be still and listen, I have to set a timer for myself. I’ll think “Oh, man – I have been here being quiet for like a half an hour!!” Then I check the time and it’s been like 7 minutes… maybe. Or 4, but who’s counting?!

I feel so childish setting that timer, but it makes me just be still and be quiet, not worrying about time and able to focus on listening. So I guess, the timer really makes me a bit more mature because I admit my need – which is a mature thing to do… right?!?!

So even though all this silence around me is maddening, frustrating, lonely and irritating – I’m trying to listen to Him. To hear what He has to say to me. To be still and KNOW that He is God- to see Him exalted in my life.

What do you do when you have quiet times in your life? How do you focus when you know He needs you to listen?

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About Alicia

Alicia is a Jesus loving, homeschooling, mini-van driving, food loving, gluten-free-cuz-I-have-to-be, fun loving, choir mamaing, bike riding, So Cal born and raised solo mama to 2 amazing kiddos with 3 cats, a ginormous dog and the 2 cutest nieces ever! She had a deep passion for cooking and baking that left with her Celiac disease diagnosis in 2013, but has now returned as she experiments with and tests recipes to make them delicious and enjoyable even without the gluten! You can find all sorts of random thoughts, ideas and whatever else pops into her completely random mind right here at Big Black Trash Bag!
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